The sun is out!!!!!

For the past couple of weeks it has been cloudy here almost everyday. Yesterday we even had snow. The days have been short, dark, and cold. And I was really starting to feel it.

But TODAY the sun is out! It is so bright I've just been standing outside enjoying the heat on my face.

I've been thinking, sometimes when I'm not doing my quiet times, or keep up with my prayers it feels very similar to being cloudy. I am not as excited about ministering to others, and I can feel it in my marriage.

The good news is like today, the sun is always there, and when I decide to get rid of the my cloudy spirit, it is always ready to shine! God never leaves me, and for that I am ever grateful.

Nearing 30...........fearlessly!

The other day I was droning on and on about some fears I had about how my husband was approaching something at Church. "What if they don't like it", "You don't want anyone to feel uncomfortable", "I just don't know about that".........all things I said. My husband looked at me and said, "If you were as fearless as you are fearful, there's nothing you wouldn't be able to do."

It hit me like a rock to the forehead! I've always thought I was pretty brave. I mean, I drive on the highway, I buy things that aren't on sale, I tear the tag off the pillows; but I don't think that's what he meant.

So I started thinking: I am six months away from being 30. How fearless can I be as I approach this milestone (well, kind of)? So, here it is: a list of some "fearless" things I want to do in the next six months.

*I want to make a cd to give my dad. He wanted me to grow up to be like Amy Grant;
not quite me, but maybe this Father's day, I could give him a cd of me.

*I want to run/walk some 5k races. I don't want to let the "I can't run" be an excuse!

*I want to get down to a size 14. Not for health reasons, but because I want to do it for me.
I want to look good in a dress!

*I want to stop worrying about not having a baby. I hear so much "well, when you're a parent
you'll know"........well, God hasn't provided yet, but I think I can still live everyday for him
not feeling like somehow I'm broken. Starting today..........I'm gonna work on being patient,
and stop apologizing for not having kids yet.

*I want to fearlessly serve God. I want to be such an open vessel that I can't help but see his
leading in situations in my life.

*I want to witness to people fearlessly!

So there, it is in writing. And maybe someone will read it, maybe not, but there it is.

I don't want to be fearful anymore...........join me?